Here We Are Again.....

Well....here we are again....at a place I never really wanted to revisit, but like it or not, here we are. And this is really not about us....not about me at all, except that my heart is shattered into thousands of teeny tiny pieces for my new friend. To stand by again and watch as GOD works His wonders in the life of this family is an honor. It is easy to intercede for them, for Amy in particular, because I know what she is feeling and thinking as a mother and as a child of the King.
But to revisit all those emotions from when we walked this path with Alex in our own family is tough. It just is. Doesn't make it bad....doesn't make it good....just makes it what it is....an emotional roller coaster. And that's okay. Because then at least we are feeling something.

But honestly, after all the tragedy we experienced the last few years we were in Colorado....my near death...the traumas and tragedies of my friends and coworkers, walking through all that grief with them for so long, I would be a liar if I said I wasn't ready for a big-time break from all that trauma. One can only stay that stressed for so long. But.....

And it's good. Because GOD's grace is exactly what we need in exactly the amount we need it and it sustains us from moment to moment.....from breath to breath. So, forgive me, Father for not throwing my arms wide open to embrace all these emotions again, but I do so with great love. Because I know You keep us in the cleft of that rock. Because I know You are Sovereign. Because I know Your unfailing love always, always provides exactly what I need exactly when I need it. I'm just bein' real here.....no pretense....no super "Sally Spirituality"..... just real life Sharoni. Just as You made me....no surprises there, huh?

Sharoni
...giving voice to those with none....

Miracle Moments

A recent visit to the ocean reminded me that what I love most about my GOD is the fact that He cares about the most minute details of my life. That there is nothing escaping His watchful eye, that what matters to me matters to Him......these are the things that bless me beyond words. But words matter, at least when you want to share those magical moments. Water moves me....the motion, its freshness, the power it contains, the healing properties.....the life in it, and its power to move you. Such simplicity....such grace and beauty.....a most interesting and inspiring entity these bodies of water are. No life can exist without its presence and involvement. And that is like GOD. I cannot exist without His presence.
He involves Himself in the every corner of my life and I love that about Him.....like the water surrounds me as I emerge myself in it.....GOD surrounds and comforts me. As we walked along the beach, looking for little treasures, we found something rare.....a joined clam shell. My husband tells me that this is a very rare occurrence, finding them intact like this. And I rejoice in the gift GOD has given us. But we seek something even more rare, Max unsure if they even still exist where we are....the sand dollar. Interesting, beautiful, and most fragile, the sand dollar hides itself in the sand (literally) as a protection against all that would snatch it up as a snack. We spoke our desire....simple, yet heart felt, because of the fragility of its beauty and its rarity. GOD heard our prayers. I wanted Max to discover one because I knew how much he wanted to give one to me....for us to share such a unique moment and gift from the sea. And as we were walking to wrap up our visit there, he prayed a simple, "Please let me find a sand dollar that I may give Sharoni....she would just love it..." and before he could barely get the last word out, he looks down and there at his toe was....yep, a lovely little sand dollar....just waiting to come home with us!
The miracle of the moment......
They are all around us....we simply need to watch for them....expect them. They are there....

Sharoni
....giving voice to those with none....